PART TWO The Invisible Bridge – My Leap of Faith at 65

April 17th 081So let’s continue on this story in real time…

Two years ago this month, I decided to follow my heart and fly to meet Jim, my soul mate, who was living in the US.  We had met in Budapest some 6 months prior at a business conference.  That meeting had set light to 45,000 words in email correspondence that led to my decision to take that flight. Now we are partners in both business and life. In all honesty, I could never have foretold my future back then.  I boarded a that flight  to see him, trusting that whatever was to be would be.  I knew my decision would change my life.

My senses told me that my heart would know if I only listened to in … that my heart and soul would make it possible.  Since then trust has become my steadfast companion, my prime value, my friend, and my core strength. I learned to first trust my heart and soul, then my mind.  Over-thinking a situation that is more about feelings than rational thought can rapidly drain the heart and soul of any desire to continue on by saying such things as “don’t be foolish,” or “ what if ….?”

I have made choices that others might reject almost out-of-hand. I have set off on adventures that even family and close friends have deemed unwise and imprudent at the very least. I have taken risks that now seem – even to me – to have been a little reckless. I have changed my habits, re-invented myself more than once, learned new skills, gained new perspectives.  I have travelled to new lands never before visited and I found my soul mate thousands of miles from home where I always thought he would or perhaps should be living .  Yet I am a normal human being. I miss my children and my grandchildren so very much. I miss the country I was born and raised in, the home of my family, my children and my grandchildren. Do I suffer the pangs of homesickness for them? Of course I do,  yet I know they too trust in me and that they know my journey is important to my own progress as a spiritual human being; as a loved one and always as a woman, a mother and a grandmother.  They are always in my heart and in my thoughts.  What has happened to me – through I had wondered was ‘pure chance’ – feels very much as though it was planned by forces far greater than me.

April 17th 083Indiana Jones – in The Last Crusade – stood at the edge of an abyss trying to decide if, in fact, there was anything underfoot to keep him from falling to his death should he take even one more step. Yet, when he drew upon his inner courage – when he stopped listening to his brain and listened to his heart – he was given the courage to take that leap of faith and so he stepped out with faith into the absolute unknown.

We (Jim and I, not all that long ago) stood on that very same mythical precipice with our toes at the very edge of that abyss perhaps asking ourselves – in our own way – “What would ‘Indy’ do?”  As we all know, the fearless Indiana Jones did trust his instincts, his heart and his soul and unfalteringly stepped forward and made his way across the great divide, scattering sand across the bridge that those behind him might follow safely. As life adventurers, Jim and I too believe this is our last crusade together; that we are in the right place at the right time … we are where we were meant to be at the precise moment we were meant to be there.

And it is to Malaysia that Jim and I arrived last November.  How did we get here? Why did we come here?  A leap of faith, yes, and we trust that all we have worked to develop over our lifetimes spent apart, and our short life together in the last two and half years, put our feet on the path we walk, the one that is leading inevitably to our destiny … that we are not here by accident and that our feet have been kept on our path for the express purpose of bring us to where we now are – together.

We are now working in together to create our legacy.

April 17th 084We learned what that was very early on in our relationship. Jim told me that, when all was said and done, he wanted to “leave the world a better place” for his having been here. It was this simple combination of words that he spoke to me that sealed my love to him in May 2012. The interesting part is, that in approximately the same words, my passion too is to manifest that same legacy,  and in particular to show people how to tap into their natural entrepreneurial creativity and spirit and guide them not just to be a successful financially but to lead a truly happy, balanced, healthy life.

 

We believe that – especially for mature people like us who are deemed all too often to be out-of-time and no more than a liability – there is a silver lining right now in today’s economic chaos that provides an opportunity for all of us to create a new quality of life through nothing more than identifying our passion and manifesting in any one of dozens of ways. The opportunity to do something meaningful with the time ahead of us is as real and as achievable as that which we can look back on with pride.

As long as there is a tomorrow, there is an opportunity to do more good … to leave the world a better place for our having taken the time to effectively and appropriately utilize all of the time that we are given, not just the time already used.

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The Invisible Bridge – My Leap of Faith at 65!

Jim and Pauline in Penang

Jim and Pauline in Penang

Checkpoint – are you heading into those silver years and feeling old and useless? Do you find yourselves in an unprecedented state of uncertainty, stress and nervous tension and the feeling time is running out? Maybe it’s just me but I find myself wanting to do more, not necessarily because I have to – although I must admit that if I had to live on my pension alone I would fall somewhere between “poverty” and “barely surviving.” In talking with family, friends and acquaintances in and/or around my age group, I am learning that my situation is not unusual. On the contrary; I find that a growing number of “baby boomers” are “in the same boat,” to put it in an overused phrase from my day.

Let me share my story and see if it resonates with you.  This month, May 23, I turn 65, and my own life, personally and professionally, has changed beyond recognition in the last year. This time last year, May 6, 2013, I had not yet set foot on Malaysian soil, yet now I live here – in a manner of speaking – and plan to transform the world from this base with my husband of just over one year.  Is it a wild dream or a realistic possibility? Am I experiencing the madness that many believe comes with old age?  How did that all happen so fast?

Allow me to answer that. It has long been my passion to transform the world; to partner with my soul mate and leave a legacy for those I leave behind when I ‘shuttle off this mortal coil.’  Decades ago I set these intentions, and trusted they would occur….yet I had no way knowing now how, where or when it would come to be.  During my life I have not always been so bold but my intentions were always authentic and always trusting.  Let me share my timeline right now.

I stepped out on to the invisible bridge  – you know … the one that ‘Indiana’ Jones stepped out onto toward the end of “The Last Crusade” – on May 21,  2012 with the certain knowledge that my “leap of faith” would plant my foot on the right path. Okay … so maybe I did not have that certain knowledge, but I felt confident enough in my intentions to take that chance. I had, after all, been setting and writing down my intentions for over 6 years without knowing the details which managed to remain largely unknown until about three years ago.

At that point my life was unfolding in an embryonic way which, at 62, was a wee bit unnerving.  During a time that would normally have someone thinking of retirement, a pension, a quiet life of being a grandparent and staying home with the grandkids, I was selling everything I considered dispensable (which turned out to be about 2/3rds of what I owned), letting go and moving headlong into a new relationship with someone who lived half-a-planet away from the only home I had known for my entire life. Not once did I really stop to consider what the consequences could be.

This journey’s outcome became more certain as time passed because I had based my choice and my intentions to share deep unconditional love with someone who shared my profound commitment to leaving the world a better place for “our” having been upon this earth. As much as that, I was drained from having done so much by myself, a feeling that “being on my own” tended to produce.

Oddly, I was not completely prepared for the speed at which this river could flow on its inexorable journey to the sea. And to this day I have no idea where it will eventually enter the ocean of all that is to be.  So now I hold fast to my courage, steer where and when I am needed, and watch as the powers of the universe chart the seas we must sail at this point in our lives.

The adventure comes with being unable to count on the next week being as I think it will be today or tomorrow. What I do know, however, is that it will be what I intended even if I fail to recognize it right away.  Have you experienced that sensation?

Do things like that scare me? Absolutely; more than I care to remember. Do I regret taking risks, setting new goals and taking a huge step into the unknown? No. 

Just as before, I know that I set my intentions and that they addressed good and decent goals. That knowledge enables me to feel truly alive and aware of the world around me.  Whether or not I like roller coasters (and in reality, I’m not overly fond of them) I am ready for the roller coaster waiting out there for me if it must be. Being the entrepreneurial creator of my life, my health, my wealth and my personal legacy is quite empowering even if a little frightening at times.  And so now with my companion, my soul mate – Jim, aged 70 – I have become far more intrepid that I thought I could be and believe me, I have done some things that Jim finds difficult to believe and more difficult, at times, to understand. We often discuss the possibility for more “baby boomers”  like us doing what we are doing. “Do they want to?” “Can we help them?” We hope so because we would like a growing number of intrepid “boomers” to join us on our adventure. There is more to the story, and in my next installment of the “Journey of a Lifetime – The Story of My Leap of Faith” I will tell you more. Jim and I feel that we are here to walk this path with you and others like you.

We would love to hear your thoughts. As some of our wisest men once said in song … “All you need is love!